Multiple Abnormalities

On Marsha's first full day in the hospital the rollercoaster was in full swing. The lung doctor told us that they had not found any cancer cells in the fluid they had removed from her chest cavity the previous day, but we also found out that the X-rays had shown multiple abnormalities in both lungs. Up down all around the emotional swings moved with greater speed and less control. He suggested that they perform a bronchoscopy to check out the abnormalities and we agreed to the test for the following day. Her breathing was better and we felt like improvement was at hand so the confusion of mixed signals was everywhere in the air. Company came and went from our friends and from the church and the nurses were great. I must say Marsha was a good patient as well. Cooperation was the order of the day for her. From that very day until the end Marsha was clear, she knew where she was going eventually and if that was the result she was ready. Death did not hold fear over her head. She had not given up on the possibility of medicine or God's intervention changing the direction of things, but she was not flustered by any eventuality. She insisted that my life not come to a stop, especially she said she would not tolerate any spiritual slacker. She was so funny. Not all days remain as clear as these first few, but all of them contained important revelations about God, ourselves, and others.