Living Life

I can focus on what I had in the past, but that will not make the parts I loved come back or the parts I hated disappear. I can live in the future, but I've found my desires never satisfy the way I thought they would and fantasy disappoints because it is usually unattainable. Today is real and I can make of it whatever I choose. I'm not saying I can make myself a millionaire today if that is my desire, nor could I change my job today or make myself healthy if I have a disease. I can however decide my attitude about life. I'm not an optimist by nature but I am kind of optimistic by faith. I may not really be able to call it optimism though because in my experience even in the most challenging circumstances God has given me a deep peace. Perhaps I have ceased to react with anxiety because Jesus has proved so trustworthy in past events. It is not that everything turns out the way I would choose, but rather that I am so sure of the ultimate outcome that the temporal outcome seems inconsequential.
That is what I call living life. It is a freedom that in my experience is not natural, but supernatural. I know people who would call it a delusion, but they don't live in my skin and have not had my experiences. I'm not some irrational person who turns off his brain, and yet often it feels like people are judging me in such a fashion. I think I have always showed respect for people who approach life as a response to their experiences, but we who have had deeply spiritual experiences are disregarded. I'll keep living life and I'll keep trusting in the greatest source of freedom and peace and love for others I've been able to find. Yes, I'll just keep Living Life.