Decorate! Decorate! Decorate! Not!!!

I can't believe it is three days before Christmas Eve and I do not have one decoration out in the house. Marsha had boxes of decorations for every holiday season and even non holiday seasons. Up would go kites for March winds, or flags colors for July 4th. I usually lugged the containers and helped to pack and unpack but Marsha would arrange and rearrange the contents all over the house until she was somehow satisfied with what it looked like. Christmas was certainly the biggest of the events. I must say I could not face the Christmas decoration container this year. I know where it is. I've even put my eyes on in the storage shed, but I just couldn't bring myself to decorate this year without Marsha. I don't miss that much about it I must admit. I don't need a tree or a Santa Claus or a Mrs. Claus or Christmas decorated hobby horses, but I do miss not having our Nativity scenes around. I think it is the most obvious sign that the holidays are different in missing Marsha than the normal run of the year moments. Marsha was my family and this holiday season in many ways is more family than Nativity. I must say in a different way than usual I will be glad when the holidays are over this year.