Juggling

We went to an outdoor free concert that had some bands that Dana knows who perform around the country. He loves to juggle to music which is where Marsha got the idea to have him juggle at her memorial services. Dana juggles most anything and often I just sit and gaze in amazement that he can do the things he does with moving objects. My hand eye coordination does not work that way. I have tried juggling objects in limited ways in the past and it was in limited ways because I was a complete failure. Juggling objects seems like it is making objects move in a predictable way that is ordered enough that you know where to reach for the moving object before it falls. This a unique skill.

To me juggling things in life is often the opposite of juggling objects. It is holding onto an unpredictable disorderly series of events without letting any of them become a disaster. You've heard it said that a person had too many balls in the air at once, meaning to many situations to handle without problems. I am good at this type of juggling. It is not that I don't sometimes let a ball drop. It is that I usually can be alright with a lot of things that have not been brought to closure without having a difficulty. My mind can hold onto a list of these incomplete situations for long periods of time without needing to cross them off as completed. In good time or in God's time they will rise to the surface for their turn at completion or maybe they won't. Marsha was so frustrated with this. It was fine if I didn't tell her what was on my list, but if I did then it somehow went on her list and she would worry that it wasn't complete. She needed to cross it off her list and so she would hound me to get off of mine. It has always been interesting to me the multitude of complex individuals that God has created. When we can grasp that one is not better than another just different, we begin to find value in what the others can do. We stop trying to fit everyone into our mold. I don't know about you, but I don't fit into anyones mold very well. I hope the only mold I fit into is the one God used to create me. I know that is the only right one for me.