Unworthy

Luke 7:6-9  “Lord, do not trouble yourself, for I am not worthy to have you come under my roof; therefore I did not presume to come to you. But only speak the word, and let my servant be healed. For I also am a man set under authority, with soldiers under me; and I say to one, ‘Go,’ and he goes, and to another, ‘Come,’ and he comes, and to my slave, ‘Do this,’ and the slave does it.” When Jesus heard this he was amazed at him, and turning to the crowd that followed him, he said, “I tell you, not even in Israel have I found such faith.”


 I know how the centurion felt. I was in a place in my life like that some years ago. I would not presume to go to Jesus and knew that I was not worthy for him to come under my roof. I didn't feel like I had authority over anything even myself so i couldn't say what the centurion sent as a message to Jesus. I struggled in that place for a long time, I wanted to have faith and accept Jesus in my life but I felt in my heart that he would reject me. I've come to the point that I feel lucky to have felt that unworthy, not that I want people to make the mistakes in life that caused me such feelings. I've come to believe that feeling unworthy is the perfect approach for coming to Jesus. 


I know some people have trouble dealing with the fact that we can never really be worthy. I've talked with people who are busy comparing themselves with others and again and again concluding that they are the good people and deserve all the blessings the world can offer. They don't see that the only standard for comparison is Jesus himself. I don't know about you but when that's the standard I'm still unworthy.